you're doing better than you think you are

on redefining personal success

This morning, I spent a few hours restructuring and cleaning my room for stronger flow and productivity. 

I was having a great time until my internal voice snapped, “Let’s hurry up and get this over with so we can finally start being productive.”

And I didn’t even question it at first ― this isn’t directly making me any money, so it’s obviously unproductive.

But when I stepped back, I couldn’t help but laugh at myself for being so self-critical that I couldn’t even organize my room without feeling lazy. In what universe is investing in your living and working environment a poor use of time?

We all have an “inner critic” voice. It can actually be useful at times, but mine just happens to incessantly pour on me like a neverending rainstorm. When I mindlessly let it weigh me down, I find myself drenched in self-loathing and drained of energy. 

Halting the rain altogether is impossible. But developing equanimity is like projecting a waterproof aura that lets the droplets slide right off you. Put literally, it helps you take those inner voices into consideration while discerning which criticisms are constructive vs. destructive.

A huge component of developing that aura has come from challenging and wholly reframing my definition of productivity and success.

Half a year ago, freelance writing was completely uncharted territory for me ― it felt like I was just aimlessly wandering through a video game seeking out side quests. So I sought advice from a close friend who happens to be an incredible artist. 

What he told me, I’ll never forget: “The best possible investment you can make is in yourself.”

Looking it up now, I guess it was Warren Buffett who famously said this ― but I’m personally attributing this one to nøll 😂 Sorry, Warren.

Anyway, if you believe self-investment is achievement, then the definition of success expands. It includes rest and relaxation. It includes forging deeper relationships with yourself and others through play. It includes creative expression and inspiration through consuming high-quality media. 

At a certain point, the process itself feels successful. Intentionally reframing your actions (and then actually following up) makes all the difference.*

Are you wasting time, or are you resting?

Are you running away, or are you unplugging to clear your head and recharge?

Are you just dancing like a fool, or are you exercising creatively while developing a stronger mind-body connection?

Whatever it is, you’ve got this. I hope you find success in your day, however you define it.

*How do you know what you actually need in this moment? Try tuning in.